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Name: Aaron
Birthday: 4/16/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Walking, talking, listening, singing, sharing, helping, playing my guitar named Gomez, and just haveing genuine good time with people I love.
Expertise: I really love to sing. Most people say I am pretty good at it, and that I have a great diaphram. That is my real expertise. I am really loud. I am loud, love being loud, and great at being loud. We have deducted that my laugh is best compared to an atomic bomb because of the sudden burst of sound and then the dying off effect.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  YHWHnmbr1
Member Since:
11/3/2004
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| I have a bone to pick with the creators of movie previews these days. Why do you think it is a good idea to tell the entire story of a movie in it's preview? For example, the Mel Gibson movie that is coming out soon. From simply watching the previews, I know that he is a cop, his daughter gets shot, he gets kicked off the case and people tell him who done it and he hunts them down and kicks their asses. Now, of course I don't know why she died or exactly who done it, but seriously, I know the entire story!!!
Please stop! Please just make it look like a story that I want to find out the rest. I have more examples, but seriously!!!
What movie previews have been give aways to you? What ones have actually left you wanting enough to actually be surprised by something that happens once you see the film?
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| Why do I start conversations that I can't finished? I used to be so skilled at sacratic debate and now any time someone with strong convictions has a differing view point from my own I become highly stressed and just back off. I know I have reasons for why I believe the way I do, but I am so afraid of sounding like just another "Christian" who has all the answers that I cower away from the opportunity to learn and grow from the discussion. I'm sorry Alex, I don't have a good answer for you. Someday I hope to be able to be as strong as you are in your convictions and be able to state my opinions with such power. Lord, why am I so filled with fear? fear only inhibits love, it inhibits growth and it keeps us stuck in the same ruts. I desire to be the passionate strong woman I once was and know that I am inside. What was it that lead to this state of fear in which I am now residing? | | |
| So, I haven't updated in here in what seems like forever. I am married now and jobless still, though I did get a call this morning from what could be a job opportunity. Sadly, I was not awake yet, nor was the phone in our bedroom, so it went to voice mail and was rather cryptic. So, either they want me to come in for an interview or there is something wrong with my name on our banking account. Sigh.
One exciting thing, though, is that I finished our wedding scrapbook! Hours upon hours of work and all 56 pages are finally finished. Wow.
And tomorrow I am headed to Michigan to then fly to Florida on Thursday with my mom and grandpa to see my sister in a cheer competition! YEAY. Which is of course half of why I am so anxious about the possible job thing, cause I am about to skip town!
I hate money because it stresses me out and I have been trying very hard to find a job for the last month and a half because of it. The prospect of even having an interview possibly is great, but also anxiety causing because nothing is for sure. Sigh. The Lord is in control. I just wish I would allow him complete control over my nerves.
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| Someone asked me recently,
"Now that you are in the process of planning a wedding, what is the hardest part about it?"
I paused enough to sigh before sharing,
"Oh, the steps in which planning talkes place aren't so bad. The hardest part is not wanting to plan it anymore." Be it a desire to elope, or hide from the responsibility and the drastic life changes that are right around the corner, the hardest thing about planning a wedding, a marriage, and a life together, is actually the planning. Planning means a need to be practical and look at all your needs, and wants, that are necessary for putting together the big day and then everything that follows. Yes, it is an absolute pain to work with caterers and to try to stay inside a 4,000 dollar budget. It is exhausting to make sure dresses fit everyone, including yourself for the special day. And it is nearly insane to sign a lease for an apartment that, for the first time in your life, you and your soon to be spouse are solely responsible for. Even how the thought of finding a job to support the two of us and our future plans takes the breath right out of you; even that seems to be too much to bear. But all of this, and so much more, seems so small in the shadow of the time and energy it takes just to get it all together. It's not so much not being sure whether or not it will all turn out well in the end, it is that we have to do all this stuff to get to the inevitable end. The end will be good, but the planning, it is the planning that makes you doubt it. And maybe there is where the magic lies in planning a wedding. Because when you do finally reach that end, having actually waded through the turmoil of the planning, you can finally enjoy how good it all turned out, in it's absolute fullest form. | | |
| First of all, I can hardly believe I have already graduated college. Man, that zipped by. That of course leads into the daunting reality that I should be doing something with my life .... Well, two weeks in and so far I have turned down a job, selling Cutko knives door to door, am living with my grandfather. While here I do my best to keep the place tidy and prepare at least two meals a day for the two of us. I have also helped with planting a garden and flowers and am now at the tedious task of re-adhering 30 year old wall paper to the walls. What fun! This is of course alongside me trying to find a job and plan a wedding. It gets a bit hectic, but people are always reminding me to take it a day at a time. I have been greatly blessed amidst all of my anxiety and it is coming in all shapes and sizes. One is that I don't really care to spend a whole lot of time in front of this computer, which I am glad not to miss since we don't have wireless on the farm. Though tiring at times, living with and taking care of my grandfather, has really been a joy. I love this man dearly and he is a real spit fire. Gotta love that in an old geezer. And I get to practice my healthy cooking. My grandpa said today that he eats a lot more vegetables when my mom and I are feeding him. That made me smile. Well, though I am still unemployed, I am finding things to fill my time and at the end of the day, enjoying it. Right now I am working on restaining Matt and I's kitchen table. Tomorrow we will have our first marriage counseling session, and then I will get to fill in at the Swiss Swirl for a few hours! So I suppose I'm not totally unemployed. Hope everyone else is doing well. I know things are overwhelming at times, trust me, I have had at least 6 anxiety attacks since graduating, but there are always blessings. And those are the things worth holding onto. | | |
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